Answer me this – does your anxiety ever calm down to pure serene silence simply because..that circuit seems to have flickered off, out of power after a sleepless night? Do you know what causes it, and whether this indicates anything about the nature of your anxiety disorder and most effective treatment? Me and my counselor are stumped; though she said she’d ask around and I thought, I might as well do the same!
We all know that on the long term, sleep deprivation makes our anxiety desperately severe – but so often I’ve fallen into unhealthy sleep patterns in order to experience calm in the short term.
In high school, this meant staying up into the wee hours of the night, when my mind as well as the house were quiet as a mouse, to study and write up homework. The downside to this of course is that I could not make up for all those lost hours sleeping during the day; my mind was calmer but also slower when sleep deprived. My emotional state worsened steadily and I’m sure my mounting sleep debt made matters worse.
Now, I see myself falling into something similar – studying and completing work day-of, just before class, after a mostly unproductive sleepless night, in the calm of a Starbucks armchair, with a steady stream of light roast in my coffee cup.
Let me know all about your experience in the comments!